i had waited so much for this day.. inspite of all the adversities, i had been optimistic n rather hoping for a miraculous way out! but neither did the event get postponded nor my exams! i really don't see why everytime there is something u really really wish for, n its right there, but jus at the moment its in ur reach.. snap, its gone! anyway, i dun wanna crib! m supposed to be grown up enough to see things practially! blah.. neway.. so the wedding is happening minus me.. n all the 'oh, why din she come..' n 'i wish she cud..' dun provide enough consolation. i missed the engagement, the sangeet, the mehndi n will too the marriage! the pics were mailed the very next day of the engagement so that i would "not miss" so much! well, that thought did give me marginal relief.. but then the next moment when i saw all those pics n heard all of it from the numerous phone calls that have been coming in to keep me"updated".. i started feelin low all the more! and here's the worst part, u can't really speak ur heart out.. cos that wud make the others "feel bad"! sigh..
neway, today mamma n my bro also left for the wedding while i slog my ass out for my next paper tomm. as u can make out the obvious, i've been soooo dedicated! bshit!
i wish there was still some way i would wake up in the morning n get to know xams were cancelled.. but then there is no way i can reach delhi in a day except flights, tickets of course i wudn't get so early! so i guess the only solace i can find is in the saying "all that happens is for good!" and maybe its true too.. or so i hope! :(
back to books..
damn!
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