its 24th dec and in less than a week we will be welcoming another new year..yeah, truly welcoming, cos i can't wait for this year to get over!! its been one hell of a year which i was certainly not hoping it to be. this was a year full of events i had waited for, and in every way wanted things to work out well!
within few days of stepping into jan dad was admitted to the hospital, and if i cud point out then it was the single most worst day of my life so far. u know its hard to explain, but there is this one moment in ur life where u see ur entire world coming down. its like ur on this rollercoaster u din want to get up on..n then ur at the top and u see that ur coming down..but now there's nothing u can do..u can only see that this is it, ur gonna hit earth n there's absofuckinlutely nothing u can do! that moment was such, infact much more! watever, i dun wanna think bout it nemore..
so i did fall terribly sick this year.. had chicken pox, n bad headaches which went from sinusitis to chronic to migraine n blah blah..!
cudnt appear for my C.A inter and well, did a little less better than my competitors in 2nd year. bleh!
anyway i did hope dec to be a tiny-winy better being the last month of the year.. but then being the last month of the year itself, when things want to hit u hard, they hit harder cos its the last oppurtunity they got! i lost this man who was a father figure to a lot of us..
anyway, i simply can't wait for this year to end.. but also dread the coming year..
i don't want it to be even worse cos its even more eventful this coming year.. touchwood!
so i WELCOME this year with warm wishes and a big smile jus hoping things turn out to be good, better, best! :) also, hoping all of u guys have a great year ahead n may all ur 'good' wishes come true!
Merry Christmas to all of u as well! i'll be stupid yet honest, i still put up a stocking each year n my Santa never fails me! :)
have a chilly and happy 25th Dec, hopefully we'll have no tsunami/earthquake/attack etc. this 26th! god bless! :)

i have no resolutions but to compensate all that i've been through this year, i have a lot of good wishes..and with my first stipend ( :D ) i am getting my cartilage pierced! :D

here's hoping all good things come to all of u and ur family this coming year.. and all that happens is for a gud reason! :)

take care! bless me too! :P

mirror

this was something i had written a long time back.. had put it up on my old blog space.. came across it while reading few old posts..


the times u were young n played innocently..
that giggle, those pranks..
life was a playground of fantasies..
the first classroom, the first repulsion towards growing..
crying in ur mamma's arms, begging not to go to school..
life already seeming like a burden..
n oh, how we were told that it was jus few more years to endure..
high school nasty comments, laughters filled with sarcasm..
the first anger burning inside, the impulsive words spoken..
drawing into ur own self, withdrawing from the circle..
makin happy with the dark, cursing at the moon..
decisions of life..responsibilities unattended..
losing that special someone..only one..
then another new chapter of life..
a breeze of bliss..
a life born of a life..
return to innocence..
watching as time grows..
colours fading from the eye..
a step towards the horizon..
a moment of tide..
and peace..

tra la la la laa..

thou shall smile, not laugh.
thou shall not let out stuff n keep shut.
thou shall move on.
thou shall feel ur own self.
thou shall play the guitar more.
thou shall not think.

*blink* blink*

i got orchids n other beautiful flowers.
i got rid of you.
i like my pic.

:)



i still havent lost weight!

*hmpf*