for S..

this year has hopefully started on a good note! :)
2008 finally did end well.. with all the unimaginable worst happening throughout the year, i was more than ecstatic the way it ended! to know the M's was more than an experience i can ever forget. meeting S for the first time, getting so attached to him in jus 2 days and then crying on letting him go.. all of it is perhaps from some different world!
i totally continue to surprise myself each day! i thot all of it had been buried deep down, but seems like i still can grow immensely attached to people. S touches the lives of everyone he meets, he did mine too. it will take time to get back to routine and i am in no hurry either! i miss him n i wish he didn't have to go. in more ways than one, he reminded me of A.. of whom i do think but don't wish to! m glad it doesn't affect me anymore, not until the day i might have to come across A sumtim in life. but S, i wish he gets the very best in life! atleast this taught me i'm still vulnerable and that its true, sometimes it jus takes a moment to love someone and sometimes ages dont suffice.
anyhow, S is my kid brother and i love him. period.
i can perhaps go on sayin what a wondeful n pure soul he is but then i don't want to feel sad all over again! it had been ages since i had cried that way n it made me feel good. somewhere between growing-up n being strong, i had forgotten how to love, how to cry! it was great meeting u S, may u have a beautiful life n wonderful people in it!

i know things will change when u go back, n so the moment we hugged, i took it all in with a deep breath.. jus trying to live the 2 days we had n all our little innocent fun in that moment! ur the bestest brother any sis can have! :) god bless!
thank u again for makin me re-live the emotions i thought i had left behind. now, i know it all over again that i'm still the lil girl i was.. that to love a person from all my heart n to give a part of myself to him, it still takes me jus a moment! :)

miss u S..
<3