i dont know why i don't blog anymore.. blogging used to make me feel good.. jus the fact that you could throw out ur thoughts n feelings into the virtual void n it stays there forever, away from prying eyes..
but these days, i've been back to square one, to my diary..
its the one J n me gifted each other as a bday gift, an identical diary.. and now its serving the purpose it was intended to when bought.. though its a lot less private and accesible by anyone, but i have guards to keep it safe..
i've had 2 other diaries before, each one special in its own ways.. and the good part bout them is that i can go back into my old forgotten memories anytime i want.. with photographs n letters! :)
they're my very own thoughts now penned down forever, so even when i grow old all i need to do is visit these brown crumbled pages n re-live the days of fun, love and tears!
but now the reason for writing again is different.. i mostly feel like writing late at night when my thoughts are at their extereme emotional best.. and usually its too late to switch on the computer and type something.. also, now there are things i don't want some people to know.. basically cos i haven't figured myself out yet!
i've been tracing my life so far, from the lil girl to the teenager.. and now as there are jus 3 months before i cross the line b/w a teenager and grown up, life i really feel has come a full circle..
life is probably at its best now, yet some ends are loose.. and well, not that i expect it to be perfect, its jus that i still need some answers..
J says he intution is at her best, and she feels something really good is coming my way.. well, lets just say Cheers to that!
i must write more now, one blog each day.. jus random stuff bout my day!

goodnight blog! :)